phew

Thank god that's all over. Who knew emotions could be so volatile on the 31st floor. After two days with many hours in my room, on the streets that I know, where people grit and grime and sell it on the corner, I feel (as Josie would say) loads better about my existence.

Sometimes, is it possible, that all our angst and emotional turmoil is due to our altitude? ---amongst other things---



i think ants are living in my computer.
i wish communicating with those you care about was easier.
i wish the people you care about the most were not the ones you hurt so much.
i wish those people weren't the ones to hurt you so much.
it's all so messy...


but then i bought these shoes...

http://www.zappos.com/multiview/7824690/718






I'd tell you more, but I can't...

just know that how you feel is really important, and
HOW you communicate how you feel is really important, and
mostly that you DO communicate how you feel
the people who care about you, will listen.



on a less intense note:::


actually, nevermind.

intensity is a part of life, and when you dig deep enough into the intensity, you find yourself on the other side of things---a pervading sense of calm.



still in the junkyard,
K