missing words

in the previous post i had typed a mongo paragraph that somehow was deleted. ce va...

better left unsaid, like most things?

this morning I had an absolute moment of "aha!" with myself:::that a very successful moment is when you become self-reliant within a social setting. When you, yourself, exist purely and absolutely within the crowd just as you would exist alone on a hillside with some sheep and a dog named Henri. (pronounced Ahn-Ri)

Of course, i've known this for a long time--but how is it that we forget even basic values we hold in such high regard in our daily endeavors. I blame it on distraction--and this is very human---we can't blame ourselves for becoming distracted.

some distractions are very beautiful and lovely.

i've always valued self reliance, and in the past, have done it in a sloppy manner. self imposed isolation. running away. neglecting cathartic moments. But really, when it's all said and done, all your fancy flights and existential migrations, your self indulging pursuits and aims to make hedgeway in the world fade and you are left---a lonely hunter in the woods with no weapon but your ego. It is at this moment that self relience might actually begin----self enjoyment---self amusement---etc etc


speaking of which:: see below

take a bath
go on a walk
read a magazine
get some nice linens
buy some good smelling soap
treat yourself to a good meal
start planning a day trip for yourself




from a seat by the window:::


K